Being Entirely Present: A Personal Inventory

Hey guys :] I hope you're all doing well! Your posts are so encouraging and filling. God is definitely moving, challenging, and changing us through these devotionals and it's evident on this blog! Thanks for being so open to share how He's working in you.

I'm a very thoughtful person. I'm almost always shut up in my head. When that happens, the rest of me(my body and soul) goes into an auto-pilot. I'm not thinking about what I'm doing, just doing it. My thoughts are somewhere else, so therefore I'm not present with where I am.
Wednesday night, I realized that my thoughts had become so overwhelming that I couldn't hear God's voice anymore- even in worship, where I can hear Him the most at times. I was so distracted and focused on myself that I couldn't feel Him even if I tried.
After my midweek college group, I was chatting it up with a friend and when I told her I had to go, she said, "Live for today, Jonathan." And I was taken back. I know what she meant was stay and hang out with us but what I heard was, "Get your mind out tomorrow and yesterday"...
I went home that night and felt convicted to do a full inventory of my thoughts, doubts and worries. I filled 3 pages in my prayer journal and going through it all was painful but necessary.

Through that process I took every thought captive and handed them over to God. I realized that most of my worries are out my control and there is nothing I do about them and in realizing that I was able to trust with God with them because I know He is in control. I was able to see the things around me again! I became entirely present.
That days devotional was so perfect for what God did for me that night.
¹ Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. (Romans 12:1-2, New International Version)
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