What I have been learning about these past two weeks is giving all control to God. I like to be in charge and in a place of authority, since I am almost 18 my parents have loosened the reigns and have started making me become more responsible for my actions thus making it easier to take charge of my life. Although most would think taking charge of my life would be a good thing, and it is, I just overstepped my boundaries and started to take complete control not letting God be the ultimate authority figure of my life. I was trying to take on everything in my life by myself. I was struggling and struggling and then I realized that I can't do this all by myself, I needed God to be in control for the things in my life to be what I need and not what I want. So on this realization I started giving things to God and letting him take control slowly but surely. I had one last thing to give over to God and I was trying and trying to give it to him but I still had a rope tied around it while I was holding onto the other end with all of my might. (I'll be honest with you guys and say that the thing that I was holding onto was a relationship that God didn't want for me, not because of something obvious such as him not being christian because he is and a strong one too, I still have no clue why God doesn't want this for me right now and I guess that I will just have to be patient and wait for God to tell me if he chooses to do so.) I finally decided that God was not going to let me have this relationship, but that I was just going to have to cut the rope and give it all the way over to God. Once I finally did that God has been there for me distracting my mind from thinking about the guy and being there for me when satan tries to get into my mind. I have given everything over to God and it feels great to know that someone so much wiser, bigger, and stronger is in control.
I never mean for my blogs to be this long, but I guess I am just long winded(: I can't wait to see you guys in just a few days!!!
-Sarah
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