lean on Him

Let me just start by saying that this post doesn't have alot to do with the devos this week, mainly cause i'm a bit behind (a very frustrating thing for me). But on the plus side my sister is finally home from the hospital again. though she is far from healed, shes home and that is probably the biggest blessing right now. On the flip side of things, this week has been full of attempts to live life on my own. To fix problems, to lead others, to conquer issues on my own strength. And even in the course of just a week it has brought me to a point of utter frustration. I can't get the stuff i need to get done, done. Tonight though, i gave up on trying to do it alone i painfully reminded myself what happens when i do it without God. I lay broken once again in my bed for the hundredth time, beating myself up over my mistakes but filled with a peace that feels like i've been without for years, though it's just been a few days. All in all i want to end with some encouragement. God gives us little nudges toward Himself, he taps us on the shoulder when we turn our backs, trying to get us to see his glory again. And when we finally turn, he forgives us for turning and just hugs us, filling us with his peace and comfort.

P.S. i know this post probably makes little sense, but it's late and my mind is happy but quite jumbled, so i ask that you accept my apology for that.